camp Camp CAMP!!!

omg. i still cant believe dat i will be gg for camp for ONE WHOLE BLOODY WEEK!!! im so gg to be so dead tired when i come back i will most probably sleep for the entire day! urgh...

okay normalyy i would jump at the chance of having camp but now im damn sian and very dead-like. haix. i guess cause firstly tmr's camp is ba comm camp and i don noe anyone in dere cause i din go for the first meeting so i missed the ice-breakers blah blah blah. now i kinda regret joining cause i don tink i will be very enthu tmr if i don noe anyone. haix. kinda reminds me of the day before FOC camp. i was fretting just like this but i hope the ba comm camp will turn out much better =))

secondly, i kinda sprained my hand while packing for my camp. God knows how in the world i sprained my hand but ya though it doesnt hurt like hell its kinda nagging at me like an itch i cant bloody scratch. damn. i guess it must be an omen huh? -rolls eyes-

fourthly, i cant find my camping bag and i bought the wrong type of wrap. instead of buying ziplock bag i bought the food wrap. now i have to buy the stupid ziplock bag and i wasted money buying the food wrap. urgh. daiso so should have signs abt the diff products 'cause i dunno abt u but i BLOODY HELL don noe how to read japanese!!!! argh!

fifthly, i need to pass gina jun's bloody bill but i cant cause my parents keep on asking me wat do i have to pass to her n i kept on deflecting the question. cause if i say i have to pass her the bill she will ask y cant i pass the bill to anne myself wen we live so close...so shit now im stuck in a corner. for those who don understand... its too long a story for me to type with one hand so too bad.

sixth, i just cant stand it when people don reply me. either when im talking to them, msges or on msn. i mean is it so hard to reply or to reply on time WHEN YOU DO REPLY AT ALL??urgh. feel like killing people man. i mean im not saying i have not been guilty of this 'crime' but i usually have a reason like im most probably sleeping or watever cause u replied so bloody late dats why. -rolls eyes- okay i should just keep my bitchy mouth shut. thank you very much. im sorry my emotions just took over me for awhile...

sixth, my dad told us that every sunday we are going to visit my brother so that means i wont be able to meet the clicks for breakfast anymore. im not very sad but im not very happy either. i dunno why but i feel like im moving away from them because of some sub-conscious feeling deep inside which cant be explained. maybe cause everytime i see them i get reminded by the fact that they have elder brother or sister while i don.. or cause i cant face them because they noe too much... i have no idea. n i hate myself for not knowing. but i don mind spending time wif my family. the accident has brought so many things into perspective its reli opened my eyes to the bitter truth.

Death is inevitable.
Death does not choose the young or the old,
Death does not choose the good or the bad,
Death does not choose the healthy or the sick.
Death comes to all.

death is inevitable
and it is decreed by Him and only Him.
Death comes not as a finality to our life on earth
but as a beginning to another in the hereafter.
Death comes to all.

Death is inevitable
Your life is planned from birth
and there is so many differences between you and me
but despite everything, the end is always the same.
Death comes to all.

i tink i seriously need to see the school counsellor. i have too much pent up frustration inside me i noe it will eventually blow up in my face. urgh. i SHALL release some of this anger and bullshit from me AFTER the camp. well good luck to me.. hope im having a better mood tmr and don be such a pain in the ass to my group ppl tmr. haix. okay camp packing awaits!!!


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