what aniszah means

What Aniszah Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

i tink i really am

falling in love with you

scared to get hurt cause i noe ure going away and i dont tink i can handle it even better than now.

even when you made me cry so many times. i still wanna be with you. God i can still smell your cologne on me. sigh.

i tink i love you.


- i'm officially missing you-

my life in words

yeah yeah i noe i haven blogged in a really loooooong time. but yeah i'd rather tell u about my life PERSONALLY then to actually broadcast it to the world for god-know-who. hahahah!

anyway, alot fo things have happened since the alst time i blogged. good and bad. right now im in the midst of stinking exams and im really STRESSED. not stressed about exams people. stressed that im not stressed about the exams. heh. what a weird child i am. hahaha!

anyway, life's been not all that great but im not complaining i guess. cause like life aint fair so i just have to suck it up and live through it the best way i can. heh.

well, one really good thing was that i finally had the guts to talk to *** ever since last christmas. its been a really looooooong time and i noe i have been trying to avoid ever having to meet *** or even talk to ***. up till the point i refuse to take the bloody *** cause it will pass by *** neighourhood. damn im pathetic. but now thank god i have finally moved on and can safely say I AM OVER YOU.

PHEW.

there are no more straggling feelings of hate, hurt, lost, betrayal or even love. i guess things happen for a reason and now i got a reason to move on and to be a better person. a person u never appreciated when u had me, even after all those sacrifices i made. but yes thats the apst and i've grown up and become less naive i guess. i am glad we can still talk and be friends which is what i wanted from the very beginning. but im afraid i need to noe what went wrong, what did you do or what did i say that made us turn out that way. but cant say i regret doing what i did. im glad actually, that i was strong enough to cut all the strings and i tink i met someone better. heh =] someone whom i hope will appreciate me better than u did.

another thing i am glad to say is about a certain someone that goes by the codename elizabeth. hehe. im really glad i had the balls to say those few simple words. my god.i nearly died trying to get those words out of my mouth. hahaha! and im glad u actually thought it important enough to think and ponder upon. damn. dis is serious and i really hope it doesnt blow up in my face. i've got to tread carefully but like anne said, we are both playing guessing games and its all so ambiguous. okay u didnt have to say that u idiot! sorry am talking to eli now. stupid shit. tsk tsk.
damn.

hahahha! there i go again. i noe sometimes my words can be cutting but when i really love i love passionately. okay but lets not talk abt all this lovey dovey mushy crap now. geez. im too emotional for my own good. HAHAHAH.

so now, christmas is coming and LO AND BEHOLD i am BROKE! meh meh =(((((( im damn sadddd i cant get anything for myself and for others. sigh. i hate christmas when i have no money... maybe i can psycho my family to go malaysia before christmas so i can get nice clothes for myself. heh heh. sly! LALALALA. hopefully, money can magically come out of some person's wallet and into mine. heh heh.

i shall edit my nice little christmas list on my blog. hopefully i can get anyone of those things. hehe. not the most subtle approach but i dont believe in guessing =]

-what did i say, what did you do. how did i fall in love with you?-

well the past few days since the start of school have been anything but great. i mean seriously, i was so looking forward to the start of school cause of the surprises it brings but I WAS SO NOT ready for this type of surprises.

i lost my laptop on the second day of school. yes before u scream IDIOT at me, trust me i have been beating myself up over this issue more times than you can say idiot in 1 minute. shit. this sucks.

PLUS i have been mood swinging from thursday onwards mostly because of YOU but also because im an emokid. argh. angsty teenager with their crazy hormones.

and i realise dat its harder for me to do well in this sem cause its the harder sem where the modules are dryer and more technical and since i lost my laptop (boohoo!) i cant do certain modules like CIP. and im not rich enough to get a new one and my laptop company is being a bitch abt the warranty. argh.

all in all im a screwed up girl in a messed up world. and i tot u will be the redeeming factor in my life but like everything i love, im losing them one by one and i tink im losing you. sigh.


-you're acting kind of shady, ain't calling me baby better say my name-

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im feeling emo now.


and God, you know why.








-hey talk to me don't play with the silence-