my life in words

yeah yeah i noe i haven blogged in a really loooooong time. but yeah i'd rather tell u about my life PERSONALLY then to actually broadcast it to the world for god-know-who. hahahah!

anyway, alot fo things have happened since the alst time i blogged. good and bad. right now im in the midst of stinking exams and im really STRESSED. not stressed about exams people. stressed that im not stressed about the exams. heh. what a weird child i am. hahaha!

anyway, life's been not all that great but im not complaining i guess. cause like life aint fair so i just have to suck it up and live through it the best way i can. heh.

well, one really good thing was that i finally had the guts to talk to *** ever since last christmas. its been a really looooooong time and i noe i have been trying to avoid ever having to meet *** or even talk to ***. up till the point i refuse to take the bloody *** cause it will pass by *** neighourhood. damn im pathetic. but now thank god i have finally moved on and can safely say I AM OVER YOU.

PHEW.

there are no more straggling feelings of hate, hurt, lost, betrayal or even love. i guess things happen for a reason and now i got a reason to move on and to be a better person. a person u never appreciated when u had me, even after all those sacrifices i made. but yes thats the apst and i've grown up and become less naive i guess. i am glad we can still talk and be friends which is what i wanted from the very beginning. but im afraid i need to noe what went wrong, what did you do or what did i say that made us turn out that way. but cant say i regret doing what i did. im glad actually, that i was strong enough to cut all the strings and i tink i met someone better. heh =] someone whom i hope will appreciate me better than u did.

another thing i am glad to say is about a certain someone that goes by the codename elizabeth. hehe. im really glad i had the balls to say those few simple words. my god.i nearly died trying to get those words out of my mouth. hahaha! and im glad u actually thought it important enough to think and ponder upon. damn. dis is serious and i really hope it doesnt blow up in my face. i've got to tread carefully but like anne said, we are both playing guessing games and its all so ambiguous. okay u didnt have to say that u idiot! sorry am talking to eli now. stupid shit. tsk tsk.
damn.

hahahha! there i go again. i noe sometimes my words can be cutting but when i really love i love passionately. okay but lets not talk abt all this lovey dovey mushy crap now. geez. im too emotional for my own good. HAHAHAH.

so now, christmas is coming and LO AND BEHOLD i am BROKE! meh meh =(((((( im damn sadddd i cant get anything for myself and for others. sigh. i hate christmas when i have no money... maybe i can psycho my family to go malaysia before christmas so i can get nice clothes for myself. heh heh. sly! LALALALA. hopefully, money can magically come out of some person's wallet and into mine. heh heh.

i shall edit my nice little christmas list on my blog. hopefully i can get anyone of those things. hehe. not the most subtle approach but i dont believe in guessing =]

-what did i say, what did you do. how did i fall in love with you?-