"...look at how she walks , her mother must have been walking like dat when she was pregnant... eh HI!!"

my god. i cannot believe how rotten ppl can be. how women can have the heart to bitch about people and then suddenly turn around and plaster a HUGE MEGA-WATT smile and say HI without batting a mascara-ed eyelid!!!


WHAT THE FREAKING HELL?!


Imagine my utter disgust when i saw it with my very own eyes(or ears) dis morning at the hougang interchange while waiting for the shuttle bus to go to ngee ann. everyday i take the shuttle bus to school unless my Dad sends me to school(which is close to never!sheesh.). so today my dad sent me to hougang interchange and i walked to the berth and dis girl hu is a fren of HC, was walking in front of me. i walked faster being the kiasu person i am and i overtook her. however, i felt damn bad and i gave her the space in front of me cause technically it is hers before my kiasuism took over me.hahaha!

aniwae, then two other frens of HC came laughing and went to talk to PEG in front of me and kiasu me rolled my eyes cause i noe dey will take more seats increasing my chances of sitting later. however, PEG did something unexpected and moved behind me saying dat dey got alot of ppl. i was stunned but said thanx =) wow.karma works fast.hahahaha!

so dey moved behind me and DBG and SEG kept laughing and basically bitching about some stuff. i had no idea how did they come to de topic of HC but they did and at first wen i heard i didnt noe hu it was. i was like thinking "walau eh dey damn bad lah." aniwae.. let me give you a scrap of their conversation..


DBG: "ya lah YL was like asking us whether she was gg to come today cause she wan to sit in front of her when she sleeps..." *Laughs out loud*

SEG: *laughs along*

PEG: eh yal damn bad lah. hu noes behind my back u go and laugh at me.. *turns away*

DBG: there she come alredi. *points to the walkway*

SEG: *turns head to the direction pointed* where where?

DBG: there can't you see? surely can recognice her walk lah.look at how she walks,her mother must have been walking like dat wen she was pregnant. HAHAHHAHAHA

SEG: HAHAHAHAHA there she coming alredi.


at this point of time my interest was alredi piqued and i turned my head to the people walking towards us and to my horror it was HC!!!!


I.WAS.ASTONISHED.

HC oblivious, walked towards them and i smiled at her but although she smiled back i felt it was more towards her 'friends' than to me. fine. so i juz carried on stoning and basically doing nothing. however, DBG and SEG kept laughing and it kinda puzzled HC and she was like huh? why yal laughing den PEG was abit disgusted i guess cause she turned away. then amidst their laughter they said something to the effect like they saw something funny. just then, YL came and DBG was like " y u come so lte? u miss the show.HAHAHHAHA"


I WAS SO UTTERLY DISGUSTED AND TURNED OFF dat i nearly wanted to go to DBG and slap her!!! i mean how can she say those mean things abt someone when de person is a good fren of hers?! MY GOD!!!!


she is such an utter B**** for saying that. i mean although i may not be a very close fren of HC and she treats me as a sparetyre, i still cannot condone dis type of attitude from her FREN. wen we went up the bus, i took the front seat and HC sat next to me. i asked her whether she wanted to sit wif her frens. she said it was okay cause dey are odd number. i was like okay... u must understand its not that i dowan to sit with her its just that she acted very nonchalant about saying hi... haix.


I asked, "are those ure classmates?"

she replied, "not really, they are my schoolmates. but we were not very close in sec school but now in poly so we juz wanna sae hi to those we noe u noe?"

I kept quiet, thinking... you have no idea HC. i debated about telling her but i felt that an awkward tension will follow and the worst part is she may not believe me.plus, hu am i to tell her that they are not true frens wen i don even noe dem and im judging them on that conversation alone. so i kept quiet.


throughout the whole journey i was thinking about how true friends are so hard to find. friends hu yes may talk bad about how the other person SUCKS when ure angry wif her but to do dat when ure okay wif her and she did not do anything to her. dats reali.. despicable and unforgivable. i don need this kind of frens in my life. i'd rather be a loner than to have dis kind of frens.

i take frens VERI seriously. i may seem a veri flippant person in having frens or watever but i hold frens in high esteem. so i guess i hav a high expectations but realistic of course. dats why wat happened on fri, realli disoriented me and reli showed the priorities of my frens.



i cant respect someone who doesnt hold their promises about friendships.



n i cant sit there anymore and disregard it becasue it will be an insult to my values and to my own principles. so if u hav a problem with me being too sensitive or think too much, i'm sori but to me de small details are the most important. and once u disappoint me no matter how big, it will take some time for me to trust u again cause i bear grudges.so don't expect everything to be fine and dandy so fast.cause dude dat aint me.give me time.


so there. take it or leave it. either way everything's changed.


-This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong-


ANI