same old brand new crap!

i got alot of grievances to say to alot of different people. so go figure out which one is for u, if there is...

-i'm so disappointed in u or maybe this disappointment was because of my own crazed, desperate mind on overdrive...

-u remind me so much abt my reli good fren, but im not yet at the point where i don envy u anymore... cause u have everything i ever wanted although i secretly wished that im a better person than u. apparently, the world doesnt work that way...

-dont pretend to care abt me wen u BLOODY DONT!
cause u noe deep inside its a lie and its getting old...

- u reli blew every damn image i had abt u when u told me u were that way. a part of me wanted to help u cause i've been down that road before, another part was arrogantly happy to noe that u, always the most decent and pious one, was defected and lastly i was afraid that it will bring up old feelings...

- suddenly the light at the end of the tunnel is getting dimmer by the day... and u don even noe that its throwing my whole self-esteem to the waves...

-u've definitely changed although the little voice told me it would happen sooner or later. the sad thing is, i noe ure juz like me and im afraid i will change too...

-even if i attend it, i stick out like a sore thumb, so what's the point of coming? maybe cause i care too much of my damn pride and my ambitions...

-i noe i haven worked hard enough for it but im juz like any self-consumed child on the street who believes too much in their own abilities and eventually it will be their downfall in time to come...

- i noe i was supposed to change but i never did. i noe u may never forgive me but i hope u will. i noe u are the saviour of my soul but im not doing anything to honour that. but the truth is.. u alredi knew all this and im juz making things difficult for u...

- u tell me ure couple problems with her and i give u advice but in the end u juz make the same mistake again and again and everytime i ask u abt it. its always the same old quarrels, the same old feelings, the same old ending. i guess its hard to let go but i reli hope u do cause we both noe it will never last for the two of u...

-world full of killing and blood-spilling-