my head hurts. oh how it hurts. its the eve of my birthday and im thinking abt how my head hurts SOOO bad..


damn. wat happened to pre birthday excitement???urgh. it probably got washed away together with my sanity. HEY SANITY!! meet pre-birthday excitement!! ain't this FUN??!!


damn.now my lameness has overridden my insanity once again. or maybe its the fever talking... okay now im juz rambling like some old fool hu is gg to be 17 in oh, 8 hours time??

great. and im still feeling pissed at everything. i mean seriously i feel like wringing ure neck and rid the world of u!!! so that u wont mess with my mind and wont make me feel like shit again and again.

im glad i have frens like anne, feng and gina hu is probably searching the whole of singapore for my CSI season 5 DVD. thanks guys! =) u noe i love yal =)

hmm... im thinking huda will probably forget my birthday or probably pretend to not forget it. roll eyes. hahaha but nonetheless i still love u =)

well i reli think this sickness( bloody hell i don even noe wat to call it...) is making me feel so bleah i cant hardly take it. and the stupid migraines have great timing. they discreetly come to me wen im having tuition. hm... maybe that's a sign.

but apparently, wen im probably dead or dying from this unknown sickness it doesnt give me the right to sleep in peace. NOOOOO! people just have to make me feel worse psychologically or emotionally. i mean seriously i juz wanna sleep and here comes something to ruin my mood to sleep and think abt stuff i SO DO NOT WAN TO THINK ABT. like WTH?

or apparently, when im having my birthday in abt 8 hours plus im dead or dying from this sickness, people dont have the courtesy to let me sleep in peace.

urgh. probably people hu will be reading dis post will probably blame me for being some psychotic, unfeeling, ure-the-worst-person-i-noe bitch. but guess wat?

i don give a damn. hate me for all i care. beat me up for all i care. screw me over for all i care. cause im at the point where the fever has affected my brain and i don give a damn for the consequences. cause yal noe damn well i mean it dis time.


oh.ya. almost forgot. one of my good frens juz told me he is gay and im like NOOOOOO!!! my God. why must u be gay??!! but i noe ure juz using that as an excuse ( a really poor excuse i must say) to hide what u reli feel. and so im gg to humour u until u realise the truth all along...

so we shall see wat happens...


- And now my mind is screaming out I've gotta keep on fighting. but then again, it doesnt end-